-Tuesday, March 31, 2009 '
wake up to a fresh new morning, with one lesser commitment. i cant say im totally not sad uh. but i'll be missing some of the times with you eh. hahaha.
anw, this brought me back to things last year (again). how scary (and stunning) that things were so similar to another. but the one great difference is that we could still talk, that i'm quite glad.
looking back, there are too much i-dont-knows, and i believed i protected myself way too much. bestie said i gotta thank someone from my past that i could survive it last night. yeah i think so too. if it wasn't for him, i would throw myself out, yet again. and i'm worried for myself too, i dont know this part of me, is it just a pretence to be alright (when i'm totally not), or am i really alright. i really dont know.
it was a little bit of everything that caused us to behave this way i guess. i think it would be hard to say that you didn care at all about them. you see, even the start of this paragraph has uncertainties already. i'll go @.@ if i count the number of uncertainties in the entire entry.
i'll be hanging out with bestie for the entire day later. the plans for the day weren't like that initially. hahaha. but anw, i'll commit myself to work and bestie more now. i wanna go back to life the way it was in january 08 till april 08. its time i take out my flute and start playing it again.
the last thing that a girl would want to hear her boyfriend say is that she deserves someone better.
8:22 AM; &I'll let it all end here.